A lot of people have dreams about freelancing, about being a writer, sitting in their jammies, watching TV, and drinking coffee.
We do drink a lot of coffee. At least I do. The rest? While some might stay in their jammies I find it more productive to get dressed each day like I am going into the office. A very casual office since I wear jeans and a tee-shirt. Then I make the trek down the hall to my desk.
Even as I write this, it sounds heavenly, doesn’t it? But while freelancing has some perks, it also has a lot of uncertainty. Still, God has helped me stay afloat in my business and has shown me lessons that have helped me grow closer to him as well.
Trust the Lord With All Your Heart
Being a freelancer is really about trust. I’m so not good at trust, not being the one totally in control. The fact that I became a freelancer is a curious thing if you really think about it. Why would someone who likes safety and control do something as unpredictable as freelancing?
It was scary when I started out. I was paranoid about money, jumped at any gig that came along at first, and constantly thought about returning to a “regular” job. Somewhere along the line, though, God has managed to transform my fears about getting new work and finding jobs so I can live into trust. While things have been up and down, I’m never out. I pay my bills. Work comes in. He’s shown me that it’s okay to step out on trust. Only He could do such a thing.
I Find Gratitude in the Small Moments
God didn’t show me how to trust by giving me everything I wanted in freelancing. Just the opposite. I quickly learned that if I felt comfortable with either my workload or income, it would soon change. Such is the freelancing life.
After a while, I embraced this uncertainty, and was able to feel true gratitude in those small moments when things were “right.” If I had good jobs, paid invoices, work that fulfilled me, I took a deep breath and thanked Him for it. I was able to look at my life in moments rather than labeling it all as “good” or “bad.” This has helped me find gratitude in every area of my life.
Time for Prayer
When I worked in an office, I got up early, scrambled to get out the door to beat traffic, drove to work, came home exhausted, and said my prayers at night like I did as a child.
Now that I’m a freelancer, I get up, shower, and then have my Sabbath time with the Lord. I look forward to this early time with Him. I miss it when I’m not able to, but more that, it changes my entire day. I pray for others more than before, I take time to think about and listen to what He tells me.
Fulfillment of Purpose
Do we ever really know what our purpose is? I’ve struggled with this question, but God has taught me to just stop worrying already. I used to fear that if writing wasn’t my purpose, I didn’t know what was. As a result, I tried not to “be a writer.” I hid my writing, obsessed over my writing, worried about it. So silly. I was concerned that because I enjoyed it and it helped me to connect to God, it couldn’t possibly be my purpose.
Well, who knows if it is my purpose. What God has taught me is that it doesn’t matter. It’s about Him and not me. I think when we get to Heaven we’ll see that God has used is in ways we didn’t even realize. All I know is that He’s blessed me with work that fulfills me.